First I want to say thank you, if you have actually taken the time to stop and read this first blog of mine. I’m new to this blogging world, my hope is to use this blog to help hold me accountable as I take a leap towards all of the dreams I have always had for my life. If along the way I can inspire someone else to do the same, and we can work towards our passions and best lives together, that would be one of the greatest gifts from this blog that I could receive.
“There is no passion to be found in settling for a life that is less than the one you are capable of living.” – Nelson Mandela
About me, first I would like to introduce myself. My name is Amber I’m 39 years (gulp) young. I’m married, my husband and I have three kids ages 8, 5, and 3. I decided to start this blog as a creative outlet to document all of the things I’ve always wanted to do, or things that I used to do and be passionate about before I became a wife and a mother. I know that I’m not alone when I say that becoming a mom has been the greatest gift that I have ever been given. The birth of my 3 babies brought me more love and happiness than I ever could have imagined. I’ve had so many insecurities throughout my entire life, but when it came to motherhood their unconditional love made me feel confident and more worthy. Maybe its them, my 3 babies , that I have to thank for deciding to step out and take this leap and go after the things in my life that I’ve always wanted. Maybe its because I turned 39 in November, or because its a new year and a new decade, and I don’t want to let anymore time go by without finding true happiness in all aspects of my life, not just motherhood.
Almost five years ago my husband decided that he wanted to quit the job that he had and start his own business. When he came to me with this idea that he wanted to go to school to get his contractors license, I backed his decision one hundred percent. I’ve always been a dreamer, and a supporter of other peoples dreams. I knew he wasn’t happy with his current job, the long hours, leaving when it was dark, coming home when it was dark, missing out on time with his kids. At this time in our lives we had our three year old son and a new baby girl. The thought of my husband quitting a job where he had a steady paycheck and health benefits, was overwhelming at the time, but I also felt proud of him for chasing after a dream and vision he had. I wanted and knew I needed to help out with our family, especially since we were going to need health benefits for our two small children. My mom, whom I’m very close with, told me about a part time position at the company where she has worked for over forty years. She told me it would only be five and a half hours a day, I would receive health benefits for myself and family, and a 401k, it sounded perfect for our situation. I applied, was hired, and am currently still working for that company today. It was perfect timing for our family, I had our third baby while I was working for this company, I was able to take sixteen paid weeks off to be with her, for all of that I feel lucky. That brings me to where we are today, while I do feel lucky and blessed for the opportunity to help provide for my family for the last almost five years, while my husband has been working hard towards his goals everyday, I also feel extremely unfulfilled in my professional life. Years ago when I first set out onto my journey into adulthood, I had lots of plans of what I was going to do for a career, what I’m currently doing was not one of the things on my list. I know that I’m not alone, I think that a lot of women, especially moms, are doing things today that they have to do, instead of what they want to be doing. We make sacrifices for our families, its our natural instinct to do whatever we need to do to insure that our families are taken care of. My hope and my goal is to be able to do both, chase my dreams of the past and current, and still continue to provide for my family all that they need and more. I want more time with my kids, I want a career that I love, I want to start doing things for myself that I love and care about again, I want to see my husband happy with his business and his career choices. Maybe I’m asking for a lot, but I don’t believe its unattainable. This is going to be the year, I hope to document my changes and growth in this blog, and I hope if you choose to follow my journey that you are inspired to chase all of your dreams as well. I read somewhere that, you are never too old to set another goal or dream a new dream, I love this! I’m here to prove that you can chase your dreams at any age.
Over my next few blogs I’ll get into more of my future plans, the class that I’ve recently enrolled in, my life in college and my twenties, mistakes that I’ve made along the way, what I really thought I was going to be when I “grew up” and why I didn’t take school as seriously as I should have, all of my crazy and eclectic jobs I’ve had along the way, the different places that I have lived, and how I swore I’d never raise kids in my home town and that’s exactly what I ended up doing and why, becoming a mom at thirty almost thirty one, and a lot of other life experiences that have shaped me and made me who I am and led me to where I am today.
I hope you have enjoyed getting to know a little about me and will follow along for more of my journey during this new year and new decade hopefully packed full of everything we’ve ever dreamed of.